Do you feel worried about not being worried anymore? I started life with an idealistic existential urgency that made perfect sense. Since then the world has accelerated to a fever pitch of pre conflict fervor and I find myself calmly observing. It is like I was watching trains fly by at 65 mph and thinking that it was all so terrifyingly fast and unstoppable. Thinking that I should do something or tell someone. NOW I am effectively on the train, it is going 250 mph and I am thinking that the sway and rumble is relaxing. It seems to be lulling me into a sleepy state of compromise where everything I need is here or close by and I have no reason to question what or when the next stop is. ALL ABOARD!